
To everything there is a season, and after fourteen years, it’s time for me to say goodbye to the Big White Farmhouse.
Since my last update, I’ve discovered quite a bit about my health and how I need to proceed going forward. Iron deficiency was just a symptom, not a cause. It turns out that chronic stress was starting to kill me. When you’re constantly in “fight or flight” and your body doesn’t know how to turn it off, your gut stops working and stops absorbing nutrients. And while the human body is incredibly resilient and will compensate for awhile, even the helpers eventually get depleted. This was my problem. At some point, my body screamed, “I’ve had enough.”
During my summer of healing, I kept returning to the idea of retreating into the desert: embracing silence, creating margin, calming my mind and heart of all unnecessary noise. This has resulted in many life changes and retiring the blog is the latest. I think after fourteen years, I’ve said all I need to say?
The saddest part is saying goodbye to all of you lovely ladies who have commented here over the years. I have been so blessed by your wisdom and encouragement. In so many ways, you have helped me feel less alone in this big world. I can’t thank you enough for that. I’m not on any social media anymore but would love to stay in touch via snail mail if anyone is interested. Send me an email!
Anyway, the purpose of this blog has always been to seek out and document the good, true and beautiful. Thank you for the opportunity to share a bit of that here. I will definitely still be on the hunt; I hope you’ll continue in your part of the world too.
May the Lord bless you and keep you in the palm of His hand. Your friend, Ashley