Good morning, mammas. I had a nice post planned for today, full of sunshine and rainbows…but honestly, that’s not how I’m feeling this week. I am weary.
I don’t know if it’s the same for you, but it seems like my life is a bunch of hills and valleys. We can go so long on the top of that hill – happy well-rested boys, few discipline problems, a clean home and full bellies. Life seems so simple then, almost easy.
And then come the valleys. And boy do they come hard, every single time. Extended family issues, a lot of potential changes for my little family, challenges with my boys and oh yeah – pregnancy! – has just compounded this week. I am tired and my heart is heavy.
I used to live my life thinking that no one needed to know I was struggling. Pull up my big girl pants, plaster that smile on my face and act like everything is fine. No one asks and I suffer in silence. Has anyone else done that or was I the only fool to think it was okay to live life wearing a mask? With a little maturity, I’ve realized that I don’t want to be that person. I want to help and encourage others during my hills so that when the valleys come, hopefully someone will reach out to me.
So that’s where I’m at right now. Sorry you came to Big White Farmhouse for such a downer post. I’ll be back tomorrow to announce the winner of the coffee giveaway. Entries are SUPER low so please feel free to enter (my pride thanks you!). Giveaway post is here.
praying for you!
I'm sorry you're in one of those valleys. I go through similar periods of ups and downs and actually, this week has been crazy for us, too. Lots of things I can't share yet with family or on my blog. So I am wearing that mask… and I have been for a while. Will send up a prayer for you!
I say….NEVER apologize for a "downer" post. It's probably therapeutic to write it…and even more therapeutic for those of us feeling the same way to read it 🙂 Keeping you in my prayers today!
I wish I could have read this earlier and sent you big virtual hugs sooner, but now will have to do. I want to reassure you that these weeks are common amongst mothers who give of themselves tirelessly. Its part of that stretch, hurt, and grow process God gives us, and you are not alone! Had one of those weeks recently and felt like the world was out to get me.
A few extra prayers for you today!
x, Anna