Hi. Hello. It’s been awhile.
In my last few posts before the break, I was trying to write about life honestly. Ironically (says the girl writing publicly on the Internet), I’m actually not an over-sharer and because I wanted to maintain some privacy for myself/others around me, I just came off as vague and whiny and lame. I really wanted to be the wise writer who could see life lessons through the mess, but instead I just felt rage-y and wanting to punch something. Not great blog material.
So I shut the whole thing down. Hard stop on writing here.
And in the weeks since…well, it’s been a ride. I did a lot of soul searching. I did a little ugly sobbing in the shower. I refocused on some things and pushed other things to the side. I realized I was feeling bone dry creatively. I tried to live just one day at a time instead of focusing on the future. I prayed for detachment and for the peace that surpasses all understanding. Just recently, Our Lord was so gracious as to give me that last one – I could cry all over again with gratitude.
I sometimes feel like this blog just adds more noise to the Internet, but I think (maybe?) I want to keep writing here. I’m pretty honest about being a hot mess 99% of the time and I certainly don’t have it all together. Even so, this blog helps me seek out the good, true and beautiful in all of my messiness. I hope it conveys that to those who read here too.
Anyway, in no particular order, below is a list of things that have been happening around here since I’ve been gone. None are terribly interesting or worthy of a post, but should I write about the minutiae anyway? I don’t know…I’m out of practice.
- I made a new weekly cleaning routine and then deep cleaned the entire house.
- This led to a decluttering extravaganza and a basement redesign.
- I started focusing on my sad hair health.
- Reselling has been picking up.
- I’m creating a fall/winter capsule wardrobe.
- My sourdough starter is officially dead.
- I’ve started learning how to draw.
- I’ve also started learning how to code.
- The dryer debacle continues.
- Little vintage additions are my favorite pieces of décor.
- I’m working on a vintage art gallery wall, but a small budget and a specific vision has me moving slowly.
- I need to make a plan about skim coating my textured walls (DIY or hire a professional?).
- I fixed my ugly sectional with a $20 hack and some elbow grease.
- I’m more than halfway finished with my Christmas shopping.
I’m so glad you’re back! FWIW I didn’t think you sounded whiny in the last few posts. To me it came across as “hard stuff going on that I can’t share”.
Glad to see you’re back! I’m so glad God has given you some peace. I hope other things are improving too.
I enjoy your posts and agree with the above. Many things just can’t be shared even in real life. And i would enjoy a post about any of the things you listed. I’ve learned to create cleaning routines myself from blogs.
I missed your posts, glad to see you back. I enjoy your book reviews, recipe and gardening recommendations and have learned a lot reading your blog. I don’t think you came across as whiny at all ! Glad you are back.
You are/we’re not whiny. Life is hard and being honest on a public platform is brave, You are a good writer and i have enjoyed reading your blog for about 4 years!! And it’s been cool reading about your journey through this crazy ride we call life.
The fun thing about having your own blog is you get to post/write about whatever YOU want!! Happy All Hallows Eve
Please keep writing! It’s nice to hear about the small triumphs and large ones (peace that passes all understanding qualifies as the latter, for sure) in the midst of messy life. Because life surely is just that: messy. But God’s grace gives us Eyes to See the beautiful. Thank you for sharing, honestly, as much as you do.
Love your blog! Glad you are back!
Glad you’re back! It seems that despite everything you managed to accomplish a lot. Happy All saints day!
Hi, I’ve never commented before, but I’ve been reading your blog for years, I don’t even remember how I found it but it’s my favorite. I always leave inspired, encouraged and with some tidbit to go check out. I love the simplicity and the faithfulness and the everyday toils you share. I truly believe it’s the seemingly smallest of things that make up the fabric of life and hold the most value because of that. Anyway, all this to say, I hope you stay and your “noise” on the internet has been of great impact to me. God bless you!
I wanted to comment yesterday but I didn’t see a way to do so…then today when I clicked into the post’s title I could see comments…just letting you know they are hidden on the main blog page 🙂 Or I’m technologically challenged 🙂 Anyhoo, I always pop in on every post you write and want to encourage you to keep on keeping on. I think people just don’t comment as much, but they still read! Hope everything is feeling more peaceful 🙂
I tried to find a workaround about the hidden commenting, but it seems it’s intentionally like that from WordPress. I don’t like it either! One of the only things I miss about Blogger…
I echo what the others said! I really like reading your thoughts, even if part of the mundane of domestic life. That is what I need to get inspired a lot of the time.