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intentional living, little by little

June 19, 2020

No.414: 2020 Gratitude // 24 & 25

Welp, my goal of writing everyday this month is a complete wash, but I’m coming back with a clearer head and a calmer heart.  Two Sundays ago, I unexpectedly felt compelled to go on an Internet and social media fast.  I’ve already shared some of my mental health struggles throughout this lockdown and the protests/riots sort-of put me over the edge.  I could feel myself turning…numb, maybe?  So I turned it all off: no news articles, no opinion pieces, no following hashtags.  No watching the fighting and disagreeing and shaming.  No more noise.  I craved silence and the best way to have that happen was to shut it all down for awhile.  (I hated “giving up” so early in my annual June writing challenge, but truth be told, my heart wasn’t in it from the start this year.)  


During the past two weeks, I have done research on my own terms, prayed a lot, and wrestled with ideas and possible actions.  I puttered around my house, worked in my garden, and finished a few projects I’ve procrastinated on.  I finished three books and am almost done a fourth.  I cooked and cleaned and cuddled these little people in my care.  I needed this time away from the never-ending information of the Internet to actually think for myself again, you know?  Highly recommend, especially for those of us prone to anxiety and depression.  


a much needed break from the news and the Internet
easily fixing the tension issues with my sewing machine
green, green, green, everywhere I look
reading outside on the rocking chairs with J
clean, cold water from our well
ham sandwiches with bread that I made and lettuce from our garden
a long phone call with my mama
starting to differentiate between bird calls
jiu jitsu classes back in session for M
watching the little kids play in the sprinkler
coconut primer water that reminds me of being at the beach
Our Lady of Kibeho
how fast D has learned Blender (a free online animation/rendering software)
watching fireflies at dusk
sitting under the twinkling lights on the back porch after the kids go to bed
little brothers wearing big brother hand-me-downs
another student loan paid off!
a beautiful Mass for the Solemnity of Corpus Christi
waking up with the sunrise
laughter
a sale on ebay
getting to the bottom of the laundry pile, if only for a little while
homemade blueberry iced tea
the opportunity to snag a deep freezer while they’re back in stock
a new website that I found to buy used books
a good hair day
a jungle of wildflowers in the front flower beds
boxes of fabric given to me by my late grandmother
the sewing lessons she taught me (how I wish I had asked her to teach me more!)
when Lucy naps at my feet
watching a squirrel jump from tree to tree to tree
my six happy, healthy children
watching a movie on a rainy afternoon
an answered prayer

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Comments

  1. Melanie says

    June 19, 2020 at 11:38 am

    I came here this morning with the intention of checking in on you. 🙂 I'm glad to hear you took a pause for your own sanity. I want you to know I really appreciate your presence on the internet, and the way you do the opposite of cause more noise and agitation. God bless you.

    • Ashley says

      June 19, 2020 at 2:41 pm

      Melanie, you have no idea how much your comment means to me. I've spent the past week debating whether my presence on the Internet was worth it and if it was time to let it all go. You're my answer to prayer! I hope to continue to post/promote the good, the true and the beautiful. Thank you again.

  2. Torrie says

    June 19, 2020 at 1:44 pm

    I think you were wise to take a break–I've stepped back the past couple weeks as well, and it's been needed.

    Let's talk about that garden of yours!!! It looks amazing! And please tell me you'll be including a pic of those wildflowers in your extraordinary ordinary life post 🙂

    • Ashley says

      June 19, 2020 at 2:43 pm

      I really need to take pictures of the garden because it seems to change drastically every single day! I'm completely in love with the whole experience.

  3. Paula says

    June 19, 2020 at 3:00 pm

    You give me inspiration every time I stop by your blog. Can't remember how I found it originally. Please continue to inspire, your words and thoughts are refreshing in this troubled time. Thank you!

    • Ashley says

      June 19, 2020 at 7:54 pm

      Thank YOU, Paula, for reading my ramblings here!

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