I just sat down to write this post, looked at the title and audibly sighed. “Be happy with me.” Easier said than done.
On one hand, I feel like I know myself better than ever. Now in my 30’s, I’ve pushed my body in amazing new ways and I’ve discovered things about my personality that I’ve never really taken the time to address. I’m confident in my own skin and that feels good.
And yet.
The truth is, I hold myself to a very high, often unrealistic standard. I’d be the first person to tell you that you are perfect just the way you are…but I’d never tell myself that.
I struggle with the fact that I haven’t lost the pregnancy weight in the timeframe I did with my previous children. I struggle with the fact that I can’t seem to maintain a consistent cleaning routine. I struggle with the fact that I’m not as well read as I’d like to be, look as put together as I’d like to be, be the business owner I’d like to be.
Maybe it’s time to give myself the same grace I would give anyone else. If God loves me just the way I am, if He made me in His image and I am truly fearfully and wonderfully made, why can’t I see that about myself? In other words, who I am to call God’s bluff?
I’m a work in progress. I’m so glad that He is patient with me.
{house to home} William Morris Project (vol.8): New Living Room Pillows
Today’s post isn’t really about pillows. I mean, yes, there are new pillow covers to share, but the lesson is about so much more than just purchasing decorations for my couch.
I like the color red. I think pops of red in decor are bright, somewhat unexpected and exciting. But when you look on Pinterest or even the popular home decor blogs, red is considered so…bluh. Unless it’s Christmastime, red is usually the color you see when people are explaining how they went from drab decor to fab.
For many years, I tried to follow the path of home decor trends. I thought about convincing my husband that we needed a white couch, I made lists of popular Benjamin Moore paint colors, I bought the chevron fabric. But something just felt off. And so like many things in my life, I got totally overwhelmed and shelved the ideas away. And did nothing.
It’s only been recently, which interestingly coincides with the opening of my own home decor shop, that I’ve felt confident in my own style. It turns out that what may be popular around the internet may not work for me…and that’s okay. At this point in my life, the idea of a white sofa stresses me out. I love the idea of it, but I don’t have the time or energy to wash the slipcovers every week.
Here’s what I do know: I veer toward a hodgepodge of traditional, semi-industrial, and modern farmhouse. I like deep wood tones, black, white and grey. I like adding in red and dusty blue to the mix too. It may not be what “everyone is doing” and I’m okay with that. And because of debt reduction and dreaming big dreams, I may live in rooms half-finished, the vision not yet complete. And that’s okay too.
So pep talk: you be you. Wear clothes and decorate with things that please you and your family. It may not work for everyone, but if it brings you joy? Then that’s enough.
A few notes about the new pillows: I bought the pillow covers from two separate etsy sellers. My husband works with geospatial software for a living, so the maps were a nod to him. The red buffalo check is a good mix of modern country. I’d like a third design, but haven’t found one I love yet. I purchased the inserts on Amazon and was slightly disappointed, so disregard the fact that the pillows lack a certain plumpness. I’m looking for replacements.
{house to home} William Morris Project (vol.8): New Living Room Pillows
Today’s post isn’t really about pillows. I mean, yes, there are new pillow covers to share, but the lesson is about so much more than just purchasing decorations for my couch.
I like the color red. I think pops of red in decor are bright, somewhat unexpected and exciting. But when you look on Pinterest or even the popular home decor blogs, red is considered so…bluh. Unless it’s Christmastime, red is usually the color you see when people are explaining how they went from drab decor to fab.
For many years, I tried to follow the path of home decor trends. I thought about convincing my husband that we needed a white couch, I made lists of popular Benjamin Moore paint colors, I bought the chevron fabric. But something just felt off. And so like many things in my life, I got totally overwhelmed and shelved the ideas away. And did nothing.
It’s only been recently, which interestingly coincides with the opening of my own home decor shop, that I’ve felt confident in my own style. It turns out that what may be popular around the internet may not work for me…and that’s okay. At this point in my life, the idea of a white sofa stresses me out. I love the idea of it, but I don’t have the time or energy to wash the slipcovers every week.
Here’s what I do know: I veer toward a hodgepodge of traditional, semi-industrial, and modern farmhouse. I like deep wood tones, black, white and grey. I like adding in red and dusty blue to the mix too. It may not be what “everyone is doing” and I’m okay with that. And because of debt reduction and dreaming big dreams, I may live in rooms half-finished, the vision not yet complete. And that’s okay too.
So pep talk: you be you. Wear clothes and decorate with things that please you and your family. It may not work for everyone, but if it brings you joy? Then that’s enough.
A few notes about the new pillows: I bought the pillow covers from two separate etsy sellers. My husband works with geospatial software for a living, so the maps were a nod to him. The red buffalo check is a good mix of modern country. I’d like a third design, but haven’t found one I love yet. I purchased the inserts on Amazon and was slightly disappointed, so disregard the fact that the pillows lack a certain plumpness. I’m looking for replacements.
{around here} Week 40/52: Week of 10.5.15
A collection of our ordinary days, recorded every week. At the end of the year, I’ll publish them into a keepsake to treasure.
Around here, I have been:
loving how TJ has all of a sudden attached himself to blankets. He drags them behind him through the house, just like Linus! It’s ridiculously cute.
wishing the cooler fall weather would come back. It went back to the high 70’s this week and I was so bummed. I’ll take sweater weather over sweating anytime.
making homemade quicksand. Most of the kids are a little “anti-mess” and wouldn’t even put their fingers in the concoction. Sophie, on the other hand, couldn’t get enough! She played for over an hour.
finishing up The Winter of our Disconnect (this book rocked my world…a separate blog post to come!) and starting John Paul the Great: Remembering a Spiritual Father.
watching the kids play poker. Mark taught them last weekend and they are all.about.it. A peek into the future maybe?
listening to The Hobbit on Audible as the kids colored a page I found online. It was the quintessential homeschool moment and I ate it right up.
decluttering the playroom and really considering each toy’s worth. Is it used? Does it foster creativity? We worked together and got rid of A LOT. I’m anxious to keep the momentum going to other rooms in the house.
thanking the good Lord for a happy baby again. TJ spent most of last week fussy and clingy and I couldn’t figure out why. I randomly peeked into his mouth this week and discovered four molars coming in! Don’t let the Mother of Five Badge fool you – I still have no idea what I’m doing.