In my gut, I knew it would come. For three weeks, I’ve felt great, empowered even. I may have gone so far as to declare to my husband that being a mamma to five was a piece of cake! But deep down, I knew the high couldn’t last forever. And it didn’t. This week was hard.
It was a rollercoaster of emotions. Some days, when the laundry was washed and folded, dinner was homemade and the schooling completed, I felt on top of the world. I loved this homemaking gig! But the other days…the days where the boys seemed to always be fighting, the house was a disaster, Sophie spilled smoothie all over the couch and the baby wouldn’t let me put him down for more than two minutes…those days had me incredibly overwhelmed and I just wanted to climb into bed and hide under the covers.
But time goes on. Life is all about changing seasons and this is one of those times. The addition of a new life is a change for everyone, a good change. In the overwhelming moments, I panic and desperately seek what little pieces I can control, but what’s the lesson here? The reality is, I’m so not in control. So I’m trying again, clinging white knuckled to Him and praying for the grace needed to do this vocation well. Here’s to a better week.
A few good things to mention:
+ We celebrated D’s 6th birthday! He went out to breakfast first thing with his Daddy and chose a McGriddle from McDonald’s. (Side note: on their special day, we let the kids pick anywhere they want to eat. Their choices crack us up.) His favorite gifts were this Ultra Agent Lego set and the Uncle Wiggily Game. For dessert, he chose a cheesecake sampler. He declared it was “the best day ever” and that made me so happy. He’s growing into a pretty great kid.
+ I’ve been walking everyday and it’s been so good for my mental health. I’ve also been hitting my weekly goal of 8,000+ daily steps. I’m hoping to add some light exercises soon.
+ Pajamas have started arriving for the BWF Pajama Drive!
Hope you have a wonderful, relaxing weekend.
