Happy New Year, friends! I hope you all had a wonderful holiday and are entering 2013 energized. I’ve missed this blog so much and I’m so happy to be back!
As much as I’d like to smile and tell you that life has been perfect around here…well, I’d be lying. Adjusting to life with four children has been very different than I expected. I was prepared for the sleepless nights, the extra laundry and even the colic. It was all the rest that threw me for a big loop.
For awhile, I struggled with the idea that I was just a big, huge failure. My house was full of clutter. I was doing the bare minimum with homeschooling (certainly no extra fun stuff!). I was behind on chores. I wasn’t losing any weight and my clothes were all too tight. My kids were watching too much TV. We ate out way too much.
To summarize: handling a newborn was a piece of cake. Juggling everything else? Failure with a capital F.
I’m almost embarrassed to admit that it took about three months for me to learn to give myself some grace. Instead of constantly beating myself up for being inadequate, I ‘ve started to celebrate the small victories of every day. It really was a Christmas miracle, since I’m definitely my own worst critic! And while I’m still nowhere near “Super Mom” status, I feel like I’m back on track. I feel like I’m closer to being the kind of mom I know I can be.
This time in my life has taught me a valuable lesson: if you really want something, you have to work for it. This can be for everything from making dinner, to desiring an organized home, to starting a new business. You have to prioritize the time, money and resources. You have to commit. Instead of living in a cloud of “somedays” and “maybes”, you have to dig deep and follow through.
That’s what I want for 2013: to live an intentional life. I want to be intentional with my family, my home and my dreams. I plan on using this space here on the Big White Farmhouse to document this new adventure. I hope you’ll come along!
Here’s to a new year of being more of who God created us to be.
